PS: I love you...

I love to love. It`s such an amazing feeling to love something or someone no matter what. To know for sure  they will always be available for you.  It gives you a safety feeling and makes you want to stay close all the time.   I wish i could say this plain and simple but i can`t. Because love isn`t simple.  Actually, most of the times, it`s very complicated. So you can`t really say if love is a pleasant or an unpleasant feeling. Everyone gets hurt. It`s just a matter of time. And you usually get hurt because someone couldn`t love you. Someone couldn`t commit to what you wanted and give you their all. But what if you are that someone? What if you`re the one that can`t fall in love? What if you loved someone that much that you tend to compare everyone else with that person? Always have, always will. You don`t want to be the bad guy, you just want to be happy and live, love, laugh. But let`s face it. Love is never ever ever simple. And saying "i love you" always majes it harder. Because saying this feels awkward for the other one especially if you`re in an early stage in your relationship. You can`t say "i love you" just to make the other one feel good. You have to really mean it. And when I say "to love someone" i mean to give your all to that person. To feel like you live from the air they breathe, to choke when they hold breath and to be born again when you look them in the eyes. So basically, if you are the one saying it, you must mean it, that if you know what love really is. If you are the one receiving it, that can mean two things. One: you have never thought of this before and now you realise you don`t know why you haven`t said it first; or two: you are very well aware you haven`t said it yet and you have a good reason for that. Maybe you don`t love that someone. But maybe you do. Maybe you just don`t know what you feel and all that pressuring with "i love you" all the time isn`t helping. What i mean is that you can say "i love you" very easily, but the most difficult part is when you really mean it. And most of the times, the speach goes like this: "i love you", "i love you too". So, if you don`t feel like saying that yet you can`t really say "thanks" or "i`m charmed". The receiver always has the thougher part. That`s why you should be the one to say it first.