make a difference

Everyday I ask myself some questions. What to wear, where to go, what must I do today, what will I do today…but the most important question that comes at the end of everyday is ‘what have I done today to be proud?’. It`s a question which’s answer influences my living and my future days. It's easy to say what you had for breakfast, but it's not that easy to live a day thinking you should do things right every time so that you can be proud of who you are at the end of the day. Today, I woke up early and walked my dog more than usual and I feel proud of that. It may not sound that much of a big deal to you, but it did to me. Because he was truly happy, and I could tell that. I love my dog, and I love the feeling I get after doing  something for him. It's the same with others. I'm happy if I made someone happy with my behaving or if I know I helped someone improve their lives through my actions. There are days when I do things I know from the beginning I will not be proud of. Why do I do them anyway? Because I'm still a child and I want to experiment. I want to feel things on my own in order to understand them completely and have the power to reveal them to others. I guess the worst day you can have is a day when you did nothing. I think that kind of day is a lost day. It's waste of energy, time and air. People die every day, people die every time we blink. They die of cancer and aids and pneumonia, but most of them die of small and stupid diseases like colds or diarrhea. Hundreds of people die everyday of hunger. Of course, we can`t imagine how that is because we have never put ourselves in the position of wondering what will we eat the next meal, or the next day.  We can actually stop some of those deaths if we get involved somehow for the world, for the people that need us. There are plenty of organizations out there, just waiting for someone to take the lead, to shout a suggestion, to want to make a difference. Each day I'm trying my best to be that someone that will make a difference someday with just a whisper. 

the countryside feeling

The great thing when I come to the countryside is that I am a totally different person. I make all these plans about my future when I'm here. Some of them are good, some of them are bad. But I cannot know that until I feel them on my skin. The thing is, that sometimes, I do crazy things when I’m here. I can’t tell the difference between dream and reality and I turn out doing stupid things. Like bad things that do nothing than to confuse me and hurt me. Even though I've grown up now and I try to avoid these kind of things, some of them just happen. Anyhow, what I was meaning to reach in this post is that divine feeling that I get when I come here. It`s a mix between calm, comfort and anxiety. It's a feeling that makes you wanna climb the Everest, fly to the sun, reach the stars and everything. I'm beginning to be poetic right now. The main point is that I always have great plans for when I get home, like now for instance. I'm leaving home in a couple of hours and I already have a million things to do when I get there. Keep your fingers crossed for me, cuz I want to be the change I wish to see in the world.

change the world

The most important thing in a teen`s life is growing up. When we are young, all we think about is how to grow up faster, we try to think and act as a grown up. And what we don`t understand is why our parents and grandparents keep telling us much they loved it when they were kids, and how they would like to be in the 6th grade again. For me growing up is a phenomena you can`t tell when happening. If I look back in time and I see myself in the 6th grade I remember a child, if I look back in time two years ago, I see a child, if I look back in time yesterday I still see the child. You see, for me, every day means learning new things about myself, about life, about writing the future. Mine and others`. The most important goal for myself in life is to make a difference. To change the world in a way. It may be a very minor change, but if that change improved someone`s life even a bit, to me it`s enough. Like Mahatma Gandhi said: “you must be the change you wish to see in the world”. I want to be that change. And so far, I think my only chance to do what I said is through Save the Children. I now know for sure that whatever I will do with my life, both study and work, that I will continue with Save the Children for the rest of my life.