the "dast" curse

this is one of my most miserable days, one of those days when nothing, but nothing at all goes the way you want it. i`m losing my minds. i need something, but i don`t know what. precisely 9 days ago i got scared i couldn`t do it, i couldn`t fall in love. that was my biggest fear since "dast". but even though it took me a while, i now know that i can stop fearing that. i feel like sharing something with someone. and i think i`ve found my someone. now i really want to see what that something is. the only question is: will i always have the "dast" curse in my heart?