soulmate

yesterday i got to thinking about soulmates. do they exist? and if so, how can you tell? a friend of mine said that she believes in soulmates and that there are more than one for each and everyone of us. but the funny part is that in romanian soulmate is translated like a pair of souls. and if so, a pair is formed by two parts. one is always you, and the other one...how can it be divided into many? she than said: it`s like a puzzle, more than one piece can fit. and i agree with that, but only one fits perfectly. now it`s not like i`m the wishing for one perfect guy in my life, i`m just asking myself some questions. as for me, i think every guy was perfect because i`m the type of girl looking for love. real love. ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love. and when i have doubts about that, i let go. i like having fun once in a while, but deep down i wonder all the time.

my first weding

today i had my first wedding. as an event planner, not as a bride ;) i had the oportunity to see Capsa Hotel on the inside and i was over-excited about everything. one thing bothered me. i saw the waiters` secrets. there is a big diffecence between what we see when we go to a restaurant and what hides behind the good looks. men in shorts were called to be waiters and while speaking on the phone and sitting with their butts on the table they were folding up napkins. i had quite a shock, but my boss said this ones were pretty stylish. anyway, i got to do a lot of stuff. all the tables and chaires needed decoration, we had place cards and candy for all the guests...so basically, i`m feeling a little tired and i think i`ll go lie down a bit.

Nirvana

Buddhists know nothing about this feeling. what i feel now comapares to nothing in the world. it`s not a crush, it`s a feeling that tells me this is it. it`s everything to me.

ice cream

I asked a friend to tell me the first word that comes into her mind so that i can do something with my blog again. and there you go it, it was ice-cream. what can i say about ice cream? i like it because it`s flavoured. i usually eat it in the winter because in the summer it melts almost instantly. this brings new stuff to my mind. like all the good things that come to an end. what i mean is that you find something that you like, but you`re not sure, you take some time to think about it and the minute you are completely positive that it`s your thing for the rest of your life, something happens and it vanishes. i experienced something like this last saturday and now i can`t stop thinking about it. similar stuff had happened to me many times before, but this time it was different, it was fistouka. and to make this whole post complete, i have to mention that i had a talk to my last happening and he was ok. the fabulous city was fine, and i mentioned i`m not going to italy this year. everything is fine. me is fine.

entirely changed

This is like a real important post to me. i have decided to change my blog into english, so that i can share it with some other people and say more things than usual. i was a difficult time for me considering i haven`t written anythig since march - i think- but now i`m back with fresh information. i have a new perception about life. i think i wiser now, but not because i`m older. i have learned a lot of things about myself and i am ready to share them with the world.
i like to travel.
i can`t quit smoking.
i like being in love.
i need to be more organised and this new job is really helping me.
i really want to go to sweeden and i shall do whatever it takes for me to get there.
i want to get into princeton.
i will improve my dancing.
i need to be taken care of.
i like big events.
i want to buy more clothes and shoes.
i want not to lose any friends.
i need to continue with all the dreaming.
i just want to be happy.