I thought I had it all. I mean, it felt like I have everything, until it felt like I have nothing at all.
My whole life was going so well, I knew something bad was gonna happen. Still, I was just kidding and paying more attention with buses and crossing roads. Until they hit me; those words. “I fell in love with her” was nothing, compared to “are you insane? Of course I won’t go with you on holiday, what will my girlfriend say?” so I thought to myself: “it’s ok, he’s just kidding, we have something here. I don’t know what, but it’s something ours.” So I told him in an attempted joke: “ok, but that’s 4 months from now”. And he jumped right back at me with his forever charm, saying: “you bitch! Why don’t you want me to be with her for so long?”. And then I said something perfectly reasonable and lovely and became the best friend and confident again. But that was precisely when I drowned. As I swallowed his words like water, and lost my breath while speaking, my heart stopped beating.
2 months ago
5 comments:
Sa recitesti cele 2 posturi peste 2 luni asa ... si daca vei simti la fel ... inseamna ca el chiar merita aceste ganduri.
Banuiesc despre cine/ce e vorba .. Dar tu ai fost mereu cu sufletul deschis .. ti-a pasat de toata lumea si ai fost buna cu toata lumea. Poate ai pus prea mult suflet in tot ceea ce ai facut. Nu la fel de mult au pus si ceilalti insa ...
Vezi daca simti la fel peste 2 luni ... si daca da ... asculta-ti inima.
tare as vrea sa stiu cine mi-a scris asta. si totusi, daca peste 2 luni simt la fel, cum as putea sa-mi ascult inima?
Daca peste 2 luni vei simti la fel inseamna ca nu au fost niste ganduri scrise pe baza unor emotii puternice traite recent. Inseamna ca tu chiar asa simti cu adevarat si inseamna ca trebuie sa faci ce simti.
Doua luni a fost asa .. un numar random. M-am gandit ca e timp destul care sa treaca si este vreme destula sa-ti dai seama ce merita si ce nu ...
O sa intelegi atunci , la momentul potrivit. Si cand vei intelege iti vei da seama "cum sa-ti asculti inima" ...
Cat despre cine a scris .. cineva caruia ii pasa de tine si caruia i-ar place sa nu fie nevoit sa se ascunda dupa Anonym ca sa-ti spuna toate astea ... dar vezi tu ... el nu si-a ascultat inima cand a trebuit si acuma deja e prea tarziu.
nici acum, nici peste 2 luni nu cred ca o sa mai pot face ceva. golul pe care il simt o sa ramana si eu nu pot decat sa invat sa traiesc cu el.
Cred ca in 2 luni nu vei mai simti acel gol in stomac. Lasa timpul sa treaca si o sa vezi.
Ne intalnim aici peste ceva timp si sunt convins ca vei avea alte sentimente atunci :-)
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