i was just speaking to a friend of mine and she showed me her status on messenger...it was kind of a joke in it, but it was about loving someone that much that it might become against the law. so, the first thing that got through my mind that time was this: "i wanna be the air you breathe when you choke" and i put it as my status. that`s because me and some pals, we had this conversation over in brusells about chocking (yeah, i know) and i figured how important must be that breath when you have to save your life. i had my breathe to give away, but there was no one to choke i could have given it back then. maybe i will use this sometime in the future. until then i want to write about some other important things that come through my mind right now. like college. i want to get into college somewhere abroad. my dream college is princeton, and i am starting studying this saturday. i hope for the best. my other choice is the university of amsterdam.
now, except for college, lovelife and and other crap, i wanna do a fundraising for the people in africa. but, i don`t want something at my school or in a local group. i want something big. something that could really make a change. and i don`t really have an amazing plan right now, but i will make one. another thing i want to do is a tour of my city. i want to visit it like i was a touris here and i want to take pictures of small things that i think could define my city and i will post them on facebook. so basically, for now, i only have dreams and desires. nothing concrete.

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a fact Sep 13, 2007 1:02 AM

Iubirea este o maligna a creierului. Cu care traiesti sub presiune, dar fara de care esti tampit. Simplu. Trebuie sa iubesti ca sa poti respira. Respiri ca sa iti oxigenezi trupul. Iti oxigenezi trupul ca sa nu mori. Nu mori pentru ca te iubesti pe tine. Si asta e dragoste neconditionata. Asadar, iubesti pentru tine. Iubesti pentru a-ti salva viata.

desire

it`s the same always undecided me, the girl that only wants what she can`t get and if she gets something she might have wanted, she`s suddenly not interested anymore. 

yesterday i had something new in my life. something i used to skip every time. i had a very good time, but something wasn`t right. maybe because i wasn`t familiar with this kind of things, or maybe i just made the wrong decision. i really don`t think so, but lately i am not sure about anything. every time things worked out faster and we got what we wanted like instantly. then it was all forgotten. so this now, is usually the time when i back off because i get scared of my choices. this is the time i feel weak and vulnerable and i need someone to help me make the right decision. i get scared of routine and boringness.  i need the strong arms to push me to a wall and show me this is the right thing to do. it`s not only the cheesy conversation and the funny stuff that make me chose. i am also looking for "the look" and the attraction. it`s like buying a box of chocolates. you like them cuz they`re chocolates and cuz they have pretty wrappings, but what if you don`t like the taste? or the other way around. you  like the taste, but they have wrappings that don`t make you feel desire. this is what i`m looking for, cuz i don`t believe in love at first sight. it only happened once, and that was my all. if i could get that now, would it make me go back to that feelings?